learning
this week has been hard and so wonderful at the same time. blessing have shown themselves in ways I never expected, hiding behind some of the most ugly and beautiful facades.
curveballs and changes; well those are not a part of life, but they are life! we never know what the next day will hold, we have an idea of what we will be doing, but everything is so very fluid.
I have been challenged by someone who I thought was a dear friend, called horrible names and for about 3 days I thought that “friend” was right. That the names I was called were really the truth about me, and it broke my heart - over and over and over again, every time I thought about the situation.
my wonderful fiance explained to me that what i did was fair, it wasn’t to much to ask. I mean, if you let someone drive your car you expect them to 1. not wreck it and 2. to fill it back up with the gas they used. (that was figurative, nothing happened to my car) I asked my “friend” to respect my things, but I guess that was the tip of the iceberg for her. She was done with me.
I didn’t understand what I did in the first place that would cause such pain over a trivial issue, then it hit me. There is something more, I didn’t keep my promise to her that I made a while ago, and I didn’t even realize it. I wish she would have communicated to me what was really going on, but now she pretends I don’t exist.
I was raised by a wonderful family, who in the core of their beliefs taught me of grace and forgiveness, because no human is perfect, not even yourself. We have to give ourselves grace for the shitty things we do and in turn forgive those who do wrong to you. Bitterness is such a heavy burden for a human heart to bear, you heart will eventually break from the weight. I forgive myself and her for the hurt she caused.
one last thing, i am moving on, because a real “friend” (whatever that means) wouldn’t call me such horrible names. two can play the pretend game and i can spell I-G-N-O-R-E just as well as you.
Life is tough, and we learn how to roll with the punches, we just can’t let the punches win and take us down. Turn your cheek, but stand up for yourself with words of love.
I will be standing up for myself, because I don’t want to be walked all over anymore.
i want it to snow
now that the summer is over, and it is colder out, the snow would make the cold a little more…interesting. I want to take some “blownout” photos in the snow.
getting paid for photography is the best.
wish it was fashion related and not …. well not happy soon to be married people.
oh i agree, wholeheartedly.
